When I was in my mid 20’s, I first read a poem called “I Am Becoming” by Jayne Relaford Brown; at the time it was inspiring to me as I started leaving behind some of the parts of my life that I just didn’t know what to do with. But now, staring 40 in the face with a delight that I never expected, the words come back to me with a visceral impact that inspires me to laugh and cry, at the same time.
I offer these words to you, and today I’m grateful for the strong, powerful, lovely, amazing, brilliant women who are my role models as I enter my next decade…
I Am Becoming
by Jayne Relaford Brown
I Am Becoming
by Jayne Relaford Brown
I AM BECOMING
the woman I’ve wanted,
grey at the temples,
soft body, delighted,
cracked up by life
with a laugh that’s
known bitter
but, past it, got better,
knows she’s a survivor
that whatever comes,
she can outlast it.
I am becoming a deep
weathered basket.
I am becoming the woman
I’ve longed for,
the motherly lover
with arms strong and tender,
the growing up daughter
who blushes surprises.
I am becoming full moons
and sunrises.
I find her becoming,
this woman I’ve wanted,
who knows she’ll encompass,
who knows she’s sufficient,
knows where she’s going
and travels with passion.
Who remembers she’s precious,
but knows she’s not scarce
who knows she is plenty,
plenty to share.
…and a few updates!
I gave the inside scoop on some Valentines Day goodies to Ann Olsen, who wrote a fun article called “5 Safe Sex Gifts for Valentines Day“. Of my recommendations, she selected the Bwarm Massage Candle and Heartwood Whips’s floggers for her top five list. Check it out for more fun ideas!
On Facebook? I have a fan page! Come find me there & get quick notes & up to date info!
Finally, there is a lot of work that I have in store for 2010…and I’m excited to get started on it. Among other things, I booked the first part of a west coast trip in April for mid-month in San Francisco! More is coming, and I’ll be sure to let you know about it.
In the meantime…I hope that 2010 treats you kindly and brings you all joy & prosperity!
If you’re a member of FetLife, find out more here. You can also check the Galleria Domain web site here. I’ll be teaching a class on Body Care for tops & bottoms before & after rough play, as well as co-teaching a call called “Opposites Attract” with Jim from Chicago. Registration is very limited, and opens on January 4, so clear your schedule & get ready to sign up!
So, Tristan Taormino, America’s darling of feminist porn and all things anal (as well as the author of one of the most recommended books on non-monogamous relationships), asked me if I would kindly review a new vibe for her – the Lelo “Ina”, which is the brand new dual-sensation vibrator from one of the most sophisticated pleasure toy companies wordwide. And while vibes really aren’t my thing (see my warning lable, below), I said sure – I’d be happy to help out, since there isn’t much in the way of reviews out there, and I know people don’t buy toys unless they can hear how others like it.
Let me tell you – that was a very, very good decision on my part.
I fully expected that this review would be a run down of how Ina works, and some suggestions for how to use it. Instead, I’ll tell you that this exceeded my expectations amazingly! I have reviewed two other Lelo toys – the Gigi G-spot toy, and the Bob anal toy, and found both to be great. But a clitoral vibe, for me? Really?
Yes. Really.
Ina needed to be plugged in before I took her to bed, and it was fully charged in about 2 hours. It’s got similar controls to other Lelo vibrating toys, and once you get the hang of them, you’re good to go. A note – the instructions that came with my vibe still had the old name, “Lola” used in the text; don’t be concerned, as Lelo decided to rename the vibe prior to releasing it for sale in the US. I suspect that the printing had already been done, and will be corrected in the near future.
Once I turned it on…wow. I started on the lowest settings and quickly ran her through her paces before playing with her. Let me tell you, when I got down to business, settings 5-7 had me humming! They feel amazing – one feels like the toy is alive, working the main sensation point constantly while the clitoral stem buzzes with occasional heavy throbs against the clit (this was my “teaser” setting); yet another throbs back and forth between the two points, which gives just the right amount of stimulation that I need to go over the edge. I was pleased that it has as much strength as it did; it’s definitely a stronger vibe than the Gigi, but still not as massive a buzz as a Hitachi. I’ts got a great range of strength, too; the lowest settings are fantastic for people who just like a whisper of a vibration, as well.
I was thinking I’d end up using it more for actual penetration (in fact, I immediately thought “Oh, g-spot!”), but it wasn’t a good fit for me. However, it worked fantastically when I let the larger bulb nestle between my inner labia or slip just inside the vaginal opening, and I could angle it nicely in that position to get the clitoral end to stroke in a few great spots – which is a great change from my first “rabbit style” vibe which never did get the sensation happening in both areas in a way that worked for my body.
Because of the satiny surface, I found that I needed to use a little extra lube for it to feel really great. I also found that it was far easier for me to adjust the speed & vibrational pattern setting than I thought; by the third change-up, I could do it without having to think about it, and it became an intuitive and non-disrupting part of my play.
End result? I had a much better than average orgasm with Ina. Usually “vibrator orgasms” are short and sharp-feeling for me, which is why I stay away from them for the most part. Ina gave me a long, strong, and fuller feeling orgasm which was really fantastic for me…a rare experience with any toy, much less a vibrating one! So, what am I going to do with Ina now?
Keep her right next to my bed…where she belongs!
You can purchase Ina at Tristan’s website, PuckerUp. At the time of this post, it’s on sale for 15% off plus FREE US shipping, so you’ll get more bang for your buck.
Here are the specs:
As always, Lelo uses body-friendly materials in their toys – Ina sports a gorgous phthalate-free silicone coating over ABS plastic for easy cleaning & durability. It has 8 stimulation modes, a rechargable Li-Ion battery that (per their notes) runs for four hours on a two hour charge, and the dial is lockable to prevent “accidental” powering on in places like, oh, the security line at my local airport. Ina should be cleaned per the instructions (wash gently with antibacterial soap & warm water, do not immerse the recharger or control area), but I also think that it’s fine to immerse the business end ONLY in a 10% bleach solution if you’re using it on more than one partner (it can be covered with 2 condoms but that defeats the purpose of having two separate sensation places). Lelo offers a 1 year warranty for manufacturing defects, as well as a 10 year quality guarantee, and comes beautifully gift boxed in their signature discreet packaging, including charger & satin bag for storing your pleasure object.
My usual caveat with sex toy review goes something like this:
I don’t usually like vibrators. I’m pretty honest about that. I have tried a few that were pretty good but as a whole, they aren’t to my taste. I have my favorite things but they’re usually for me to use on someone else, not on me. So when I do a sex toy review, I am coming at it from a (mostly) non-regular user standpoint. On the plus side, if I like something, then I really like it. On the negative side, I haven’t got a zillion things that I’ve tried and enjoyed, so YMMV if you’re in that group.
My new article on the intersection of kink & spirituality went up today!
BDSM is rarely considered from anything other than its purest physical aspect; even rarer still is it presented as something other than a pagan or non-mainstream religious set of beliefs. But what happens when someone who has deep faith and belief in more traditional, conservative religion finds that their sexual interests don’t exactly fit in with that lifestyle?
I really enjoyed writing this article; hopefully it reflects the experiences of many of my friends and others in the kink community who have wrestled with the overlap of their sexuality and their religious beliefs.
Here’s an excerpt from the article…
“It’s difficult enough for many of us to reconcile the spiritual traditions and religious viewpoints that we carry with our modern views of sexuality: admonitions against masturbation, homosexuality, pre-marital and extra-marital relations pepper various religious texts, not to mention directives from various pulpits and sage advice from leaders of the faithful. While most current major religions espouse that a healthy sex life is an integral part of being a healthy human being, there is a wide range of definitions of what “healthy” might mean. While all agree on sex within a married relationship for procreative purposes, the rest of it is a bit blurry—even more so when we try to figure out what the consensus might be about kinky sexual behavior.”
Want to read more? Check it out here!
I’ve been waiting for this one!
Tristan’s take on sex toys? Right before the holidays? And for under $20 for a lovely, hardcover book? Talk about your timing.
Last weekend I taught at class on G-Spot Play for Whole DC, and as I was starting to get my show-and-tell items together, I remembered my new “Big Foot” locking toy case from For Your Nymphomation. I picked it up at the recent Black Rose big event; Vera from FYN totally sold me on how much stuff you could get into it, and how spiffy it was (I also picked up one of her signature glass dildos and a matching furry padded case just for it to stay safe in).
For all it’s sleekness, I was totally blown away by what I got into it. Two silicone dildos, a We-Vibe in it’s own plastic case with charger, two glass dildos, three bottles of lube, and a bag of gloves fit inside with enough room for me to have packed a few more dildos, a box of condoms, and a dvd or two.
Best of all? I walked down the streets of DC with this classy case in my hand, and nobody knew all the goodies I had tucked inside! As a sex educator, this was probably the best investment I’ve made (and yes, I paid for the case – full price, in fact – so I’m not pimping it out because I got a freebie – I’m pimping it out because it’s THAT GOOD!).
Check it out – along with the rest of their cases. They have a fantastic flogger case that I’m eyeing next…
I’m very honored to be interviewed by Dr. Charlie Glickman, one of the amazing people behind Good Vibrations and their wonderful education programs (as well as a fantastic sex educator himself). His questions were thought provoking, and it was a great opportunity to actually remind myself why I love educating so greatly! You can check out the interview at Good Vibrations Magazine.
…to help them out!
My friends at Wicked Grounds have done an amazing thing. They’ve created an amazing cafe in San Francisco, right off of Folsom Street, that caters to the kinky and kink-friendly community in their fair City by the Bay. Perverts and pastries live happily together in a space that is redolent of coffee & rope, surrounded by books, toys, and amazing artwork. There are plenty of sexy – and non-sexy – events on premises, including chair massages and bootblacking as well as some other special gatherings.
Unfortunately their hassles with getting the building up to code left them in a bind – and not the fun kind. They’re getting popular quickly, but the income isn’t letting them eat away at the debt incurred during their pre-opening construction. They could use some help!
In a recent post on their blog, the outlined a few ways to help:
- Donations of any amount (some donations will even get you goodies such as a free beverage, a Wicked Grounds bumper sticker, coloring books, and other schwag)
- Spreading the word in the San Francisco / Oakland areas, as well as for kinky folks that are “just visiting” the Leather Mecca.
- Purchasing a special membership to the cafe, which includes a special thank you party, goodies, and discounts!
Please go check them out. If you’re in the area, stop by for a sandwich, a magnificently brewed beverage, and a delicious treat (seriously – I have been there, and their pastries are DIVINE). If you aren’t, pass the word, and consider a bit of financial support for an amazing shop – because one day, I want a Wicked Grounds in DC so I can go hang out with the rest of the local perverati, too!
I want to congratulate the winners of the Kink Academy contest:
Sabrina Wolf, who suggested basic scene negotiation for a first date
Sammi, who said that she’d like to see a video or series on ways to whip and flog, what whips or floggers work better than others, and demonstrations of how to get the effect you’re after. (Sammi – actually, I have a clip on KinkAcademy on how to select a flogger, and I know that Princess Kali has other special flogging demos lined up!)
And Meg, who said “Most of the rope stuff I’ve seen other places assumes a female bottom; I’d love some suggestions and ideas for binding a male rope bottom. There must be a few different techniques 
Also safety of urethral sounds/catheters, oh, and electrical play.”
Thank you all for entering – all 28 of you! The winners will be receiving their access codes & goodies from me shortly; I invite the rest of you to visit KinkAcademy.com & take a look at what they have to offer. My great thanks to Princess Kali of Kink Academy for letting me run this contest & giving some freebies to me to do it!
So, what do you think? More contests in the future? Or are there enough out there already?
